WOW alot has happened

There has been so much happened in the last few months I have seperated from David and now have a new partner named Dale he is a wonderful guy.
I am 14 weeks pregnant to Dale.
The baby is due on 28 May 2010.
I am busy getting baby stuff we have names picked already.
will keep you all updated on what goes on with pregnancy as it progresses.

An Update

Sorry i have been so slack doing this i just keep forgetting.

weight is still sitting around the same it is frustrating for me.

I did a 10km fun run with a guy from the gym Tony, Rhiannon and her friend from swimming Megan. i credit me finishing it to Tony he was there pushing me all the way he had alot more faith in me than i do in myself it is nice to have someone believe in you and we beat Rhiannon and Megan so that was a bonus and gave me bragging rights lol.

I have also done ice skating which was fun mind you i had a frame but hey i still did it.

I have just got back from another trip to Bowral I love going to visit down there it is such a beautiful part of the world and i do enjoy seeing my friend Greg as it is the only time i get to see him.

whilst i was down there he took me fishing now that was an experience caught lots of seaweed and when i went to cast the line it caught onto the back of his car on the wiper and splattered prawn over his car now that was FUNNY. when we got there it poured rain so we both got saturated. DAMN rain.

Also my best female friend Amanda has moved back to Newcastle so i am so happy about that and so is Rhiannon i missed her when she lived in Melbourne and i get to see her beautiful daughter Ruby more just hope now she is back she stays here.

In a months time i am getting professional photos of myself and make over cant wait for that as the last professional photos i had done were of me when i was 119kg heavier and i took them all down as i hate them.

In other news Rhiannon got a new puppy Shannon he is a shetland sheepdog he will be a show one i call him trouble lol.

I am on annual at the moment i dot want to go back to work wish i didn't have to work but unfortunately i have to :(

well that's about it for me for now Hope it isn't as long next update.

Hi sorry it has been a while since I last posted a lot has been going on

David had some strokes just after my last post 7 in all and we have had some other stuff going within the family that i shan't go into on here

Rhiannon got to meet her 2 half sisters for the first time ever a week ago they are really nice

well my weight has been at a stand still not going up not going down too much
I am back at the gym and as of last week i started lifting weights again YIPPEEE

I had a banding fill last week didn't notice any change tho but i haven't had many fills in the yr

On Jan 8th it was a year since banding and i have lost a grand total of 118kg now still want to loose a bit more tho

I am now down to a size 20 - 18 not bad considering i started at 36 - 38

I am glad the biggest loser is back on TV gives me some TV to watch

My goal for 2009 is to stay out of hospitals and NO operations lol I had 3 last yr and it wasn't fun I got hospitalised 5 times in all

anyway that's about it for me hope everyone is well

The photo was taken in Nov at my Xmas party for work

I got staples out today

YIPPPPPEEEEE I got my staples out today it hurt getting them out as the wound site is infected but at least they are out thank god.
Unfortunatly I am not allowed to drive for 2 more weeks yet :(
I am back at work on monday for 1 job I am glad about that as I have been bored out of my brain I am not used to not being able to do stuff.
I am so missing the gym I want to be back at it but wont be until the new yr :(
I will have to build up slowly again but hey i used to that by now.
Have my works xmas party next fri night I cant wait.

Not Again

Hi everyone Well shit has happened to me again.
On Monday I was at work and went for a walk at lunch time. i got a sudden fever and felt sick then started throwing up so I went home dont know how I managed to drive home but I did well when I got home I had a massive lump in my lower abdoman so David took me up to the hospital where they felt it and said it looks like I have a hernia so it was off for some X-Rays and an ultrasound. Whilst in the ultrasound the surgical registra came in and it was confirmed that my bowel was coming through my stomach lining, the Dr tried to put it back in but he couldnt I think that everyone in Belmont must have heard me as it was so painful. they found out there were many tears in my stomach lining caused from my gall bladder surgery. Back in emergancy he gave me more drugs and tried to push it back in but to no avail. So it was off for more X-Rays and at that stage the Surgeon came and saw me went through alot of stuff with me on what can happen and what the problem was.
So back to emergancy and the registra saw me again and said that you are being operated on tonight the time was 8.15pm and i was being operated on at 8.30pm nothing like a emergancy op I found out the hernia was strangled and it was a possibility I could loose part of my bowel or my life if they didnt do something quick. Well that freaked me out and I went to peices unfortunatly a friend rung up at that stage and I went to peices (sorry Greg) so it was into surgery for 3 hrs when I saw the Dr again I was told what should have been a small surgery turned into more complicated as there were many holes in the stomach lining that needed fixing.
I thank myself lucky that David didnt listen to me in Emergancy as cause i was in so much pain I told him I wanted to go home to take me home he wouldnt and in hindsight had I have done that the story may have turned out very different.
So after 5 days in hospital I am now home and very soar and hardly able to walk as well as off gym for 6 weeks again.
which equates to weight loss slowing down again.

An Update

Hi well I have been flat out lately I now have a second job so im working day and night keeps me off the streets. My weight has been slow latelyso not much to report there but i am only 3.6kg off my goal weight of 100kg. since i last wrote i have ridden a mechanical bull and did wall rock climbing. I have been going out a bit latley dancing too. Not much else to report. The pic was taken at Kavon theatre

What I can do now

Hi i have been back a week from Bowral and I had a great time down there I did a few things I never thought I would do.
I went horse riding and to all my doubters (Greg / Lance / and all those at work who said
I would fall off) guess what I didnt.
I went to Jamberoo where I went on the taboggins, Water slides, went in the wave pool and many other rides I would never have been game to try if I was still the same size I had a ball cant wait to go again.
I was keeping up my exercise whilst there I went walking and running most days seeing as I wasnt going to the gym.

I went out last weekend twice I saw the radiators n Fri night then went to see a band sat night is there no stopping me lol.

My confidence

Well my confidence since I have lost weight is remarkable yesterday I went to the beach for the first time in 22 years. I was like a big kid in the surf then sun baked it was so much fun jumping the waves boy the things I have missed. We washed my car in the morning and ended up having a water fight but I must say Rhiannon started it lol. I just ended it after i took the hose and bucket to her boy was she wet lol.
Rhiannon and I are going to visit a friend and his daughter in Bowral we leave today I love it down there.
We are going to go horse riding and go to Jambaroo fun park another 2 things I wouldnt have done if I hadnt lost so much weight.
It is funny I know I have lost so much weight but for myself I still see myself as that person who was 219kg I see myself in photos and and can see the weight I have lost but my mind just wont catch up to my body.
I started work part time at Big W doing night fill on Fri so I will be working full time and part time and doing the gym dont know when I will get time to sleep lol but I will work it out.
Wel thats all for now we are off to a dog show then away on hols for 2 weeks YIPPPPEEEE.

My night out

Last night I went to Kavan Theater what a ball it was it is all creatures doing a show it was for a friends daughters birthday it would have to be one of the best shows I have seen I cant wait till I could go again.
I am off to Bowral in a weeks time I cant wait we are away for 2 weeks YIPPEEEEE I love it down there.
We are going to go to Jambaroo and are going to go horse riding that should be fun well at least funny.
Dont know what else we are going to do yet.
Well thats all for now.

How funny I must have looked

Today I went for my first bike ride for a million years, I havnt riden a bike since I was a kid.
We got given 2 bikes a week ago got new tubes and tyres for them and they are good.
Went to the gym this morning then went to the dog show came home and decided that I would take the bike for a spin, I went as far as Blacksmiths which is about 8km round trip took me a bit under a hour.
Now my legs are soar and so is my bum I will need to work up to getting further and I feel I will have to invest in a padded seat.
as for gym I have been every day for 28 days now by the time fri comes around it will be 33 days. I cant go to gym next sat as I am working at the elections all day.
Not much else to report what a boaring life I lead Gym Work Sleep and do it all again.
Am looking forward for 3 weeks time we are going to Bowral for a break cant wait.

A year on

This week it was a year since I started my weight loss journey and in that time I have had alot happen I am also over 90kg less here is a summary.
28th Aug 2007 Started weight loss journey I radically changed my whole life expecially what I ate, I quit alcohol, soft drinks, fried foods, I started walking very slowly to start with I might add as I struggled to get up the street.
Sept started gym on my fitness age test I had the fitness of a 83 yr old now that was a kick in the teeth for me.
Oct able to get off insulin and all medications for diabeties.
Nov had chicken pox so couldnt exercise.
Jan had lapband and ended up getting pluracy, had fitness age done again and now down to 30's.
March hospitilised twice with gall bladder attacks and subsequently had gall bladder removed.
June fractured scafoid bone and dislocated knee in fall at gym in woolongong couldnt exercise for 6 weeks found out I have arthritis in knee.
What I have learnt the past year
* if you want something bad enough you can do it but it isnt easy it takes determination, stamina, guts, sacrifice & hard work.
* the key to weight loss is a combination of exercise and eating properly sure you can loose weight by doing just one but combine the two and you have more chance.
* weight loss can change your life in many ways I am not the same person I was a year ago I have more confidence in my ability because now I have a can do attitude and my weight is not going to beat me I have chosen to live my life to the fullest, I am in control.
* yes you will have setbacks and you will have times you do something you shouldnt but it is how you recover that matters do you let it defeat you and throw in the towel or do you put it behind you and get back on the horse I personally choose the later.
* I have a few inspirational songs I have adopted as my theme songs they are Lift, Shine, permission to shine, High hopes, Big girls & stop and stare, I listen to the words of these songs when exercising and it inspires me to give it my all.
* most importantly you need supportive people around you and that I do have.

What a week

Well I got to the wedding down at Wollongong but the next day I was at the gym and had a fall and have fractured my hand and dislocated my knee lucky me, so no exercise again for a while as i have a plaster on and a leg brace. It is a conspiracy to stop me exercising I feel but one I shall win as soon as I am able to I will be back to exercising again that I can promise.

As you may notice I got my long hair cut too.

The pics here are taken at the wedding I went to

I am impressed with myself

I was very game today I did a RPM class by myself this morning at the gym.
I did my first ever RPM class with Selina a woman from work the other night and I really enjoyed it.
I will eventually try some of the other classes.
Yesterday Trish, Rhiannon and I went for a walk up to Green Point we did the whole track.
With my weight I am now down to 117.9.
It is funny 12 months ago I would have been stuffed doing the housework now it doesnt bother me funnily enough I look at is as another form of exercise.
Last night we went and saw Narnia it was good I reccomend seeing it. well thats about all for now.

WOO HOO

I have done it I am now in my teens with weight as of this morning I am now 119.9 so i am a teenager again lol.
Last night we went out for tea to Valentine Bowling Club with the banding group from Newcastle and of course David and Rhiannon it is always great to catch up with some special friends the people on the group are very dear to me I am so grateful for meeting them as we all share a common link I don't regret for a minute getting the band done.

On Tue I had my appt to get a fill but they didn't want me to get one. I have now lost since my heaviest 99.1kg since 28th Aug 2007 83.5 and since the band 8th Jan 31.3

I haven't been walking for 3 days now as we have had bad rain but I have still been going to the gym.

well that's about all that has been happening for me so until my next update stay safe.

Exercise Exercise Exercise

Hi well I seem to be at a stand still with my weight at the moment I seem to loose a few KG then put it back on I am lately hovering around the 80kg lost.
Today I talked Rhiannon into coming for a walk with me in the morning I didn't tell her we were going for 3 hrs though what a mean mum I am lol.

After the walk I went to the gym I pushed myself hard I was actually running on the treadmill now don't get excited it wasn't for to long lol one of the women who works at the gym and told me she was very impressed I said I didnt think anyone saw.
When I was working out in the women's only part a woman said to me I know you don't know me and I am not weird but you look amazing so I asked have you been coming for a while she said yes she used to come with her sister of the mornings when I used to go in the morning. She recognised me by the top funny my top is what people notice me by it is now 12 sizes to big for me but it is long and I love it. I also ran into a woman who used to live 2 doors down from me at Cessnock she hasn't seen me for ages so didn't know I had lost any weight.
later in the afternoon Rhiannon and I went for a walk for 2 hrs up in Newcastle we took the 2 dogs for a walk as we were walking around the water we saw some Whales and Dolphins not to far out it was a tourist attraction there and not something I expected to see on a walk see walking is good for you to see stuff lol that's my excuse and I'm sticking to it, after that we went and got cold rock I was good I just had lemon sorbet and strawberries the ice cream looked so tempting but I resisted thank god I am sure my body will thank me for it someday lol.

Anyway that is me for now I am going to go to bed as it is another big day of exercise tomorrow and so continues my weight loss journey.

whats been happening with me

Well it has been a while since I wrote last not alot has been happening after I had my gall bladder taken out all I seem to do is work and excercise I have been going for a walk every morning for at least 2 hrs and on the weekends I do a 3 hr walk to go with my 2 hr one I love walking up to Green Point in Belmont it is just such a gorgeous area to walk We really are luck to live in such a beautiful place, when I die I want my ashes scattered off the lookout at Green Point if I still live around here.

In the past few weeks I have seen a few people speachless who havnt seen me for a while and did not know I had lost some weight.

I am now down to 80kg lost as of this morning or from my heaviest it is 95kg.

I finally tracked down some pics of me at my heaviest believe me not many pics of that stage exist thank god.

Boy how life has changed for me I love going to the gym, I love exercising, I love walking if I dont get to excercise I cant stand it my how life has changed, I just said to David the other day I am not the same person he married apart from in name but that is a good thing, I weight 80kg less, I have more confidence, I would never have gone anywhere by myself now I will and do every day on my walk I will even now go shopping my myself, only a year ago you would not have seen me out by myself if it was dark now when I go for my walk I leave home about 4.40 - 4.45am when it is dark, I figure if something is going to happen to me on my walk it is meant to be as I am a firm believer in what happens is meant to happen and nothing will change that.

When I look at myself now I find it hard to believe how much weight I have lost, I never dreamed that I could loose 80kg, sure I am still obese but when you look at how big I was I can hold my head high and say look what I have achieved.

My Opperation

Well only 2 days after getting out of hospital I ended up back in another one again this time JHH, I was at work and started getting severe pains in the side so my manager called an ambulance and I got taken to hospital and admitted again believe me gall stones are not fun they are extreemly painful.
They decided that they needed to opperate on me so onthe Fri night I underwent emergency surgery to have my gall bladder removed but they also removed a lump in my tummy and apparently I had a bad infection as well so it took longer than expected I went in at 3.30pm and didnt get back until 9.30pm so another stay in hospital again but hey at least now I am out and no more pain from the gall bladder I just wish they had done it when I was in Belmont hospital and I would have been back to work again by now hopefully.

so once again gym membership on hold for another 4 weeks and having to start from scratch again with excercise. I am so so missing not being able to excercise it is killing me I can wait to get back to it again but I am not going to push it tho as I have used up my quota of hospital stays for the next 10 years lol. so needless to say the weight has come to a stand still for now, on other news I had my first blockage last night I had a sandwich it didnt go down to well I am now still waiting on my second fill had to cancel 2 appts as I was in hospital I now have appt for April 22 as one place where they did the op is right near the port for the band so cant have a fill till wounds have healed up but that is life.
Today my brother in law and sister in law were up from Woolongong as well as my neice and her new born daughter none of them have seen me since I have lost some weight they knew I had tho, I wish we could see more of them as I get on well with them we only get to see them every 6 to 12 months or so Bern has been in hospital herself so we had to compare hospital notes lol glad im not the only one who hates hospital beds lol.

My hospital stay

I have just got home today from spending 3 days in hospital in Belmont on Sunday as I was preparing to go for a walk from home to Swansea I was struck down with severe pain in my abdomen and back after persivering for a little while I said to David I think you need to take me up to the hospital, up there they did numerous tests and found that I have gall stones as well as a low heart rate and low blood sugar and also I had a temprature lucky me that earned me a holiday in hospital. I have just started a new position at work so doesnt look good I am there 3 days then in hospital, but it cant be helped.

In the time I have been in hospital I have put on over 4kg and it isnt even that I have been eating the wrong thing none of the days did I have 3 meals on the Sun I had breakfast then did not get a meal till Tea as I was in emergancy all day, the monday they gave me cold toast and butter now I cant think of anything less apertising than that same for Tue breakfast so it just goes to show excercise is the key to it all so what it took 3 days to put on will probibly take 3 weeks to get off how depressing but once again it cant be helped.

My last week

Today I went for my walk that took me 2.15hrs up to Green Point then I got ready for work, I started a new position at work today. After work I went to Rhiannon's swim club so I couldnt get to the gym I really do miss when I cant get to the gym you might say I have become obsesed but hey there are worse things in life to be adicted to, I dont drink, have never smoked, I rarely play pokies so I see the gym as a good adiction one that benefits me and will give me years back on my life and thats a good thing.

It is so hard for me to believe i am like I am now I used to drink a stack of soft drink and eat wrong foods I wouldnt dream of doing that stuff now my weight loss is the most important thing to meright now apart from my family and my job.

My walk to Swansea

Yesterday after I went to the gym, Rhiannon and I went for a walk we were going to check out the cemetary at Belmont but I said to Rhiannon do you want to walk further down the Paciffic Hwy.
She said lets walk to Swansea, well I agreed not realising it is 6km one way so all up we walked 12 km boy was I tired after that.
I am used to walking 8km but 12 well I surprised myself and some of it I ran not alot tho but some and any is better than none.

Today I did the gym again and the Green Point walk again I am looking forward to tomorrow I am starting back up personal training again which is something I have really missed for the 7 weeks since my Op I have a good trainer which helps.

Today my weight is 136.8 which brings me now to a total loss of 66.6 since 28th Aug and from my heaviest 82.2 boy I amaze myself not that I am modest or anything lol well its past my bed time now I need my beauty sleep not that it works lol

My first fill

Had my first fill today boy did that hurt when he bought out this massive needle I thought oh my god it was massive about 4 or 5 inches long at least and thick.
Dr put in 3.5 ml it hurt every time he moved it apparently I have alot of scar tissue.
The dietitian was very happy with my weight loss 6kg in 3 weeks.
I have permission for to lift weight at the gym again but have been told to take it easy so I will start gradually and work back up to what I was lifting.

It is still so hard to get used to all the attention I am getting because of my weight loss i even had a supervisor say to me the other day that I am such an inspiration for her, WOW I have never inspired anyone before in my life it is so weird I feel so good about what I have achieved but no matter how hard I try I feel so uncomfortable getting the comments and attention I get because I have lost so much, but I will get used to it I worked it out today from my heaviest I have lost 80kg and from when I started on the 28th Aug I have lost just over 64kg WOW I can hardly believe it myself.

When I am at my goal weight

Went to the gym the other day and was talking to a guy that goes there he actually works there now and during our conversation I mentioned that I would be happy with 100KG and that I have started running a little bit, he said that when I get to 100KG he and I are going in a fun run (that should be funny to watch).

I have got to the very top of the lookout at Belmont, boy that one kills it is on a mountain and it is mostly steps, Today Rhiannon and her friend Liana came with me Rhiannon said that she was never doing it again (what a whimp lol) you can see all out over Lake Macquarie from the top.

I have been really good with my eating I turned down fairy floss today actually the thought of chocolate or fairy floss makes me feel sick. My mum got me to hold her bun today for a minute and I saw all the butter on it and thought, god I am glad I dont eat that stuff now, I never used to look at it like that.

With my weight wise I seem to have hit a plateau not loosing alot but not gaining either so thats ok.

I go for my first fill on Wednesday and I am looking forward to that. not much else to report on me I am now down to 140.6 that 130ish mark seems so elusive right now but i know within a few months 130's will be a thing of the past roll on 100 or less.

Shopping Day

Today I went for a walk up to Green Point and back which is about 7 - 8 km then we all went shopping as I wanted to get another camisole and black pants I ended up getting 4 Camisoles, 1 Top, 1 T-shirt and a pair of pants, the pants are a size 24 and they fit YIPPEEEE god I love that I dont have to buy my clothing from the USA it is such a good feeling to be able to go into Target, Big W or K-Mart and but clothing there something most people would take for granted but not someone who has been my size (36-38), it is so hard to believe myself that I no longer have to buy overseas.

I said to David we are going to have to watch out I could become a shopaholic for clothing lol. Now I am set for clothing for now till I loose more weight.

We got lunch at the shopping centre I was very good so many choices but I chose
Sushi well I think that is a good choice, Rhiannon tried some of the wassabi, boy it is hot lol you should have seen her face but then I must admit I had a bit to much of it on one bit as well boy does that stuff have a kick to it.

We went to Mum and Dads as it was Dad's birthday on Wed but due to swimming for Rhiannon and my work (this work caper gets in the way of alot of things but unfortuantly an necessary evil) we didnt get to see him on Wed so we had tea there today.

When I got home I once again went for a walk up to Green Point and this is where I did something that amazed myself I actually ran for a tiny bit about 30 steps at a time I did that 5 times I never thought I would ever run again, now that to some might not look like a big deal once again something most people take for granted but not when you are Extreemly big.

On the way home I got drenched as the heavens opened up, David actually said to me before I left take an umberella I said no it is sunny, famous last words that will teach me to not listen to him but alas that is life.

Now is my time to veg out, I shall watch the Fri night epesode of the biggest looser that I taped, as I have really got into that show. I never wanted to watch it before but god I do now and I love it the theme song from it (Lift by Shannon Noll) is now my theme song.

Anyway thats me for now I look forward to keeping you updated soon.

My Day

Today was work again this work caper is doing my head in lol.



It wasnt as busy today thank god as I had a massive headache all day
I didnt go to the gym today i packed my stuff to go after work but the hed was pounding so I didnt go



Yippee I have the weekend off not that i will do much gym housework etc


I have been getting many comments at work about my weight loss which for some stupid reason I feel uncomfortable about, no one ever comments on how i look dont get me wrong it is nice people notice it just makes me uncomfortable and everyone is now noticing as I have lost so much i have even started wearing slacks to work something I would never have done when I was at my biggest I have even started to wear heals another thing I would never have done.


Today i dusted off my old boots with heals and wore them havnt worn them for years. Funnily enough I am also taking more pride in how I look since loosing a bit of weight wearing make up etc boy how things change imagine what i will be like when i get down even more lol


I am never going back to how I was this is a whole new me and I like who I am and I will like me even more when i am even less.

well I have bored you enough now till later take care

My First day back at the GYM

HI today I started back at the gym which I an very happy about I have missed it since I had my OP I used to go every day. Today I did 25 mins on the treadmill, 25 mins on the bike and 20 mins on the eptical trainer I didnt do anything else at the gym as I am not sure if i can lift yet I will ask Dr when i go on the 20th Feb.

Today was flat out at work blasted bad weather as I work in insurance claims if we have had bad weather I am busy and hasnt the weather been crazy lately but hey it keeps me off the streets.

I forgot to take my cruskits to work today for lunch so I just had to have my tuna what a wally I am oh well thats life.

As of today my weight is 141.6 KG

Only 41.6 KG to go to what I would be happy with but who knows that may change when i get there lol.

P.S. the photo was taken at Fitzroy Falls southern Highlands on 23rd Jan 2008

Never again

Hi Welcome to my blog Here is a photo of me taken in NZ Auckland Zoo 31st March 2006 (left side) i weighed 203.4kg I am never getting back to that ever again at my heaviest I weighted 219KG but there are few pics of me from that stage as I was alergic to cameras. The other image was take at a friends wedding in Feb 2005 I dont know what my weight was then.